Thursday, October 21, 2010

RAK 22/32

Just ordered some Scentsy for Miss Khloe's online Scentsy party! (See post below). I can't wait for my house to smell like something other than a poopy diaper! :)

Update on one of my RAK recipients

You may remember me talking about a sweet little girl I don't even know named Khloe. I linked to her Caring Bridge website in one of my RAK posts. Little Khloe is doing really good! She was able to go home for a brief time but ended up back in the hospital with pneumonia. She is getting much better again and will hopefully be home soon. I just love reading her mom's posts, she is such a positive and faithful woman, totally laying Khloe's life in God's hands.

Anyways, I am going to link the blog again because today's post has a couple of new ways to help Khloe and her family out. Her mom is having an online book fair to help earn money toward buying Khloe some books. All you have to do is click on the link, order your own books for your children, nieces, nephews, grandchildren, whoever, and Khloe will in turn earn points toward her own books. She is hooked up to a bi-pap machine a lot of the time, so she doesn't get to be as mobile as she'd like, a book would be her perfect toy!

Another person is hosting an online Scentsy party for Khloe, with profits being donated to her medical bills. Not only do you get 15% off of your order, but you get to stock up on your Scentsy and know that you are also helping out a sweet family. I just recently went to my first Scentsy party and they have some fantastic scents! I will for sure be stocking up on my fall/winter scents!

Of course, I know there are a ton of families in need. I am not saying you have to help this particular one. If you know someone in person, please think of doing something nice for them. This is about helping somebody, monetarily or otherwise. It could be as simple as having your child decorate a card for an elderly person in a nursing home or volunteering your time at the Lord's Diner. What are you doing to make someone's day a little brighter? I guarantee the recipient will remember your kindness long after you've forgotten.

Here are Khloe's links: (Khloe's blog) (The link for the online book party) (The link for the online Scentsy party)

RAK 21/32

Donated coffee to the troops while at Starbucks today.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

RAK 20/32

Let someone ahead of me in the grocery store check out line.

Thursday, October 14, 2010


As I sit down to write this post, I am still unsure of if I will actually post it. I am hoping it will be cathartic for me, even though it may make me feel vulnerable. I am hoping it will be inspiring to others, who may feel like they should remain silent in similar circumstances. Deep breath, here we go....

Why do we, as women, keep certain happenings of our lives so private? I am guilty of this myself. When we were trying to have our first child, we were struggling with infertility. Did I talk about it with anyone? Nope. I suffered in silence, smiled through welled-up eyes when someone lightheartedly teased about us"needing an instruction manual," secretly made doctor's appointments without even a glimmer of support from anyone around me. Why? I have no idea. I am an open book on all other areas of my life, but somehow I have deemed reproduction to be off-limits. And I know I'm not alone. It wasn't until I blogged about my struggle on Tucker's blog, that I had friends come to me with similar stories. Which brings me to my newest topic of Taboo.

I had a miscarriage this week. Ryan was out of town, and when the bleeding started I had nobody to call. Nobody knew I was pregnant yet and my mind was freaking out. Am I miscarrying? Is this just implantation spotting? Was this because I lifted a 50 pound bag of dog food today? Maybe I'm bleeding because Tucker jumped on my stomach when we were playing earlier. I Googled. I Googled some more. Oh, and by the way, I think it's totally crappy of advertisers to have annoying pop-up ads that won't go away when someone has looked up something so depressing as Miscarriage Symptoms. Geesh. /tangent.

I went to the doctor the next day, by this time, there was no question in my mind what was happening. This was not just spotting anymore. I just have to make a sidenote about my doctor here because I think he is exceptional. I cannot say enough good things about him. He is the doctor who delivered Chloe and I have been nothing but impressed by Dr. D. He is so kind and compassionate and when I tried to brush all of this off like everything was fine, he reminded me it's okay to feel let down and disappointed. He reminded me that even though this was an early loss, your mind quickly starts making plans and having visions of the future when you see that plus sign on the pregnancy test. How true his word were. I had already calculated my due date and daydreamed about how neat it was going to be for Ryan to have a baby born right around his birthday and/or Father's Day. June 17th is when I was due. I had already made a mental note of what gender neutral summer clothes I needed to pull out of storage. I had made another mental note to get my maternity coat back from my sister. I was making plans for this baby and to have that melt away in just a few hours was heartbreaking. Even though my intuition told me from the beginning that something wasn't right, I still had dreams for this baby. And you know what else I loved that Dr. D did? He referred to it as a baby, not a fetus, not a clump of cells. A baby.

It was confirmed with the results of my bloodwork that I had a complete miscarriage, which is a blessing because that means I don't have to have any other bloodwork done and I don't have to have a D&C.

I have to say, this isn't exactly a club I ever had the desire to join, but I am here. I have a family member and a couple of friends who also belong to this club, but I have a sneaking suspicion there are even more who never talked about it. Do I wish none of us belonged? Of course. Do I wish more of us would talk about our hurt and disappointment and sadness. Yes.

This post was written a few days ago. I am doing well, but I think this post does need to be published. I am not ashamed of my miscarriage and if this post helps one person feel like they aren't alone, then it was all worth it.

Monday, October 4, 2010


I love my husband. I love my children. I love my job. I love my life.

Just feeling lucky tonight, no special reason for this post. :)