Finding my Zen

What a rough week.



First, we have Tucker's sleep disturbances that require one of us to sleep on an air mattress in his room. He is waking constantly through the night, but if someone is there to reassure him, he falls right back to sleep. If someone is not there, we get to deal with hysteria and at least a one hour saga of getting him back to sleep. Nevermind that Chloe is still waking 1-2 times a night to nurse, I am basically running on caffeine at this point. I'll sleep when I'm dead, right?



Second, we have the fact that Ryan was out of town all week. We normally alternate rooming-in with Tucker to lessen one another's lack of sleep, but this week it was all me. Don't get me wrong, I am not in any way upset with Tucker. I don't know why this is happening (although I did finally see the presence of the dreaded two year molars tonight, just barely emerging), but I know it's not intentional on his part. He is just a little bit sensitive and needy right now, and that's okay. It just makes for a really tired Momma.



Third, my house looks like a freaking tornado hit it. Being the only parent around this week and having to go to bed when Tucker goes to bed, I have not had the opportunity to do anything around the house. And anyone who knows my children's personalities would totally understand why I can't get a thing done while they are awake. I gave birth to parasites. Oh, and Chloe is a double-whammy, spending half of her day being a parasite and the other half of the day trying to give me a heart attack with her adventurous self.

Update: This post has been sitting in my draft folder for, um, not quite sure...a few weeks, maybe? I had to laugh when I found it because things have not changed. At all. Ryan is still going out of town for a week at a time, both kids are still parasites, both are still not sleeping through the night. My house is still a disaster, despite daily efforts to make it presentable. Can I scream now????

RAK 18 & 19/32

Donated coffee to the troops overseas at Starbucks.

Brought my neighbor's newspapers up to their porch, they must be out of town....

RAK 17/32

I belong to a couple of different forums online and I found out about this story from one of those sites. I don't know if I am touched by her story because she is a month younger than Chloe, or maybe it's because her name is Khloe, or maybe it's just because she's cute as a button, but reading her story just broke my heart. Khloe was born with many defects, and right now she is fighting for her life. Her family is amazingly strong and faithful, and whether Khloe makes it out of the hospital or not, they will be left with astronomical medical bills. Khloe has had a rough week, but the past couple of days have been very encouraging!

I urge everyone who reads this to, at the very least, pray for her, her family and the medical staff caring for her. Or you can follow my lead and if you feel led to commit your own random act of kindness, donate anything you can to help her family pay for her medical care. You can donate by going to this website: http://www.karing4khloe.com/

You can stay updated on her fight for her life by visiting: http//www.caringbridge.org/visit/khloesassman

RAK 16/32

Could it be??? Am I really halfway done? Yay!

I waved someone through ahead of me in heavy traffic yesterday.